Thoughts Along the Sidewalk

I once met this beautiful girl. She had eyes that sparked like diamonds, the lips of an angel, and a smile that launched a thousand ships. She drove me crazy. But then, as time passed by, I eventually met another girl. This girl well, she was grotesque. She threw words that slashed my whole being like a ruthless tiger, had a soul that had to be cleansed, and a heart that didn't seem to exist. She drove me crazy. You know the similarity between the two girls? She drove me crazy.

It's been a tough year for you and me, Charm. We've had to grind it out like no other, Charm. Problems, left and right. But we haven't gone out without a fight.. All the hardships have taken quite a toll on us, Charm. We're obviously very exhausted, Charm. The break is what we waited for, Just so that we can have time for each other, just some more. The hardships may have taken a toll on us, But we haven't shown much fuss. It's time to rest our tired bodies, Charm. You may be tired, but you still look like the beautiful woman that I love, Charm. But as I watch you sleep, all that truly matters, is you, my Charm.

Camille, you are a pain in the ass. You whine too much. When you give me a sermon, it's as if it's the end of the world. When you slap me in the ass, it hurts like crazy. Camille, you are a pain in the ears. When you clean it, it's as if a drill is penetrating through my ear. When you shout through it, IT FREAKING HURTS CAUSE YOUR VOICE IS SO LOUD LIKE HOW I'M TYPING AT ALL CAPS *pauses, breaths, whispers* it hurts a lot Camille, you are a pain in the mind. Sometimes, you ask questions which is tougher than the Math tests I take. You say things which just boggle my mind. Most importantly, you say things which just give pain to... My heart. You are also a pain in the heart. You do things. You say things. Which utterly destroy me. And it hurts. But then? It isn't all that bad. It isn't. You may hurt me, you may give me pain. But eventually, all that pain is washed away when you eventually find a way to smile. And that smile is priceless. I...

The light will shine someday. It's something people say when they need positivity in their life. In a time of despair, they wait for that shine. That shine that will make things better. That shine that will show them towaeds the light. That shine that will make them better. I was looking for that back then. I was lost. I was sad. I was looking for a reason for things to be better. Then, I found you. Now, as you show your smile, I'm reminded that I have that shine that has shown me the light towards what is right. That beautiful, amazing smile. That smile, that shines.

It's been 360 days ever since that faithful day. 360 days ever since, quite litetally, my life took a 360 degree turn. 360 days ago, you broke my heart. You broke my heart when it all started. Little did I know, I wasn't the only one whose heart wad getting broken. Turns out, I was breaking your heart too. There was a beast inside of me which hadn't been released yet. I never knew I had that side of me. Turns out I did, and I hurt you. Immensely. In these 360 days, it's been, wild to say the least. 360 turn there, 360 turn here. But as the world turns, 360 degrees everyday, I'm sure of one thing. My love for you will never fade, no matter how many degrees, and how many days, pass by.

I love you. Three words. Infinite meanings. To some it may not sound real. To some it sounds fake. But for me it's not a sound. The three words "I love you"? They come in three main ways for me. Way one? Smile. When you smile, I go bonkers. When you smile, I know it's for real. When you smile, I know that you definitely do love me. Way two? Eyes. Your eyes are beautiful. They direct me, in a sense. Your eyes show me your true intent. Your true you. And what I see is a person who loves me too. Way three? Actions. The way you dance. The way you walk. The way you blink your eyes. The way you shop for tupperwares. Everything that you do, it feels like it's of love. Those three ways. They show me those three words. And the amount of possibilities that those bring me are endless. But one thing is for sure; it's real. And I am so blessed to be receiving it. I love you Camille. I will show it to you in more ways than three.

Psycho. It's a word that's often met with negative reactions. Any person described as a psycho is immediately met with negativity. You're a psycho. You're controlling. You hack accounts. You're well.. A control freak. It drives me crazy how much of a psycho you are. Literally. I find myself grasping for air every time I have to answer your questions. I find myself dancing and doing random movements every time I have an argument with you just so I can calm myself down. Yes, you are a psycho. But you're my psycho. Being a psycho doesn't necessarily have to be a bad thing. I mean, I'm a psycho as well. You're a psycho to me. I'm a psycho to you. It just means that we love each other so much. Because we do. A lot. You're crazy for me. I'm crazy for you.

By the time you're reading this, you're about to drive. An experience that is riveting, but at the same time tough. We drive to make transportation easier. It's a private way of moving around, one that is safe. One that is secure. We want to be driven around somewhere, moving forward to a place full of our hopes, dreams and desires. As I sleep right now as you read this, I just want you to know. No matter how shaky drivers we both may be right now, at the end of it all, I want it to be you who I'm driving it towards our hopes, dreams and desires. You provide to me the most security. You provide to me the most safety. Most importantly, you provide something no one else can give. And that's your love.

As the car moves, on to our next destination, I start to stare at you. You're sleeping soundly, waiting to arrive at another building, with or without me. Here I am, staring at you, and even though the car is moving, the world stops as I look at you. Your eyes are closed, but I can immediately feel their beauty. Your mouth open, but words need not be spoken. All I need is to look at you, to recognize how amazing you are. As we approach our next destination, uncertainty fills our minds. But what I'm certain of, as I stare at you, is I want to be with you, in every destination that we go to.

Hug a cactus, you're immediately called an idiot. People have their reasons. Hugging a cactus is painful. It has its spikes which you can't remove. Spikes which will hurt you no matter how much you want it to not hurt. People have tried their best to remove these spikes. But in the end, these can't be removed. These are spikes that have become a part of you. Spikes that are ingrained in you. But you know what? I'm willing to accept those spikes. They may hurt. People may call me stupid. But I love you. And that's all that matters.

I lay on your chest, I can feel you close. I cancel out the outside noise, To listen to your heartbeat. I hear it beat once, It isn't that clear just yet. I hear it beat again, The clarity is slowly increasing. I can hear a name. But it isn't that clear yet. It's slowly getting there. And the name that I hear surprises me. Who is the name that your heart is beating for? Is it me? Listen to mine. And it only says one name. That's Camille. That's you. My love.

When in need of a drink I will go to you Because you quench my thirst Whenever you need it Whatever I need You immediately provide it You are my rock You are my protector Most importantly? You quench my thirst.

Five years with Camille Has been amazing Filled with joys and tears Throughout these five years There have been tough times But we have pulled through It is all worth it 'Cause I am with you Here is to more years My pretty Camille